family are my point of life now

family, for myself it's center of my life now, especially my mom. I was living with my pap, my mom, my brother, and 3 my sista. but it was, now I only live with my mom and my second sista. here are the story...
first my brother get married then moved to his own home, now he has 2 children.
then my pap died on 2004, feel so losing him, until today I still feel I miss him
then my third sista get married too and moved to other city, has 2 children too.
then my young sista get married too and follow her husband on other city too. now pregnant.
now can u imagine 4 person leave the home and left only 3 person, feel so quite home, then decide to add servant to accompany my mom, while me and my sista go work.
so...for me it's my pleasure time when all my family complete on home and that's very occasionally moment, usually we go travelling.
we had car, it's "kijang", because we are a big family.
usually my brother drive, sit beside him is his wife, at center, my mom between 2 my old sista,
then at back me, my young sista, my sista's husband. so fully and crowded, but very fun.
we enjoy go anywhere. go to beach, bring own food and drink, very missing moment.
hope we can do this fun often and many time

june 23, 2008 (monday)

wake up earlier, but no exercise. keep fasting on monday.
prefer to sleep again, I wake up at 7.00
go to work, without no passion at all. do nothing too at work.
how come?...I just sit and wait to go home. very poor me.
how I can make my passion up? I feel so under estimated.
receive email from yvonne, she ask me to finish my work.
I should to do that, but don't know why today I feel so lazy.
I feel like I do routine thing, and this bother me.
I need some challenge on my life.
hopefully this will be end sooner.